one assureance

A school located in London give me a permission of the entrance. I got one place to go after graduation, and that is the one I eager to go.
This school name is London College of Education, Graduate school. and I'm supposed to take a course of Japanese Language Teaching, so after 2 years I'll be a Japanese teacher, hopefully,,,
Of course, I have some anxiety about this, but I have only way "just do it". Moreover, I don't know why though, I feel I 'll be ok there.

15 May

I found it's a just middle day of May...really time flies.
Of course I go to school everyday and study at the library for 3 or 4 hours, but I just can make few result. The good fruit doesn't ripe easily,,,I know. Yet, I'm impatient, too eager for the result!
It's disadvantage for the life. I should know better,,,

I'll have been busy this month. Almost all weekend I have something to do, which is appropriate for a student.
This weekend I'm supposed to go to Nagya for taking a test and a lecture. these would be some essentials for my career. And the next one is to be long school holiday, so I go to Tokyo to visit some exhibitions and friends. It's reallg good to have some friends who let me stay every where in the world, I'm grateful for this profoundly. The last weekend of May, I have to take an interview test. I'm really nervous with this,,,,
In June, I already have some promisses with my friends. I've never been such popular so far! it's weird,,,haha.

I'm planing to hold an exhibition in September. It will be of old Wajima lacquer wear bowls. Since the earthquake hit there, many old lacquer wears were found from dameged wearhouses. I plan this exhibition for preventing them from being scattered. I believe they are important proof of artisans' history in Wajima.
Preparation should get started from now. I hope it'll be good one and many people will see it, because I believe they are beautiful human works which have significance.

stirring up

that's not fair,
even I know there is nothing to do.
it's too far.
I cannot touch, feel nor hear.
maybe I take it heavily more than I should do.
but with this situation how can I endure.


it'd be certain, if I were there,
or,
it'd not happen, if I weren't there.

that's completely unfair.
and I know there is nothing to do.
it's too late.
because now my desire goes so far.
and somewhere I'm surprised myself being able to do.
but same time I'm afraid so much of the future.

I cannot give him up after all,
notwithstanding my fear.
although it seems absolutly impossible,
the way going is unpredictable.
the life is like walking blindly, supposing the world.
now then, why don't we take the imaginally reality as a pleasure?

so called "Golden week"

The long holidays have been over,,,it's called "Golden week". We had 4 days off from school and work. It started from 3rd Saturday ended on 6th Tuesday, today. What have I done during this vacation,,,is just having fun with my friends.
The first day, I joined a BBQ being held by one of English conversation club member during daytime, then at night we went out for drinking. At the bar, I met an old friend from Vancouver staying whom I hadn't met years,,,what a coincidence! My city is so small that everyone knows each other, strong connection.
The second day, 4th, I went to a kite festival near my town with my friend and her family. In this festival, there is an extra event inviting a popular singer. We wanted to see him. His name is Jero, black guy who sings Enka which is a local Japanese song genre. He became popular these days so he's on currant topic. We enjoyed the festival a lot, because the show was fun, moreover the sports kite demonstration was fabulous! It was like moving with their will. So cool!
I didn't do anything on 5th besides cleaning my room.
And today, 6th, I played tennis with my friends from English club member. Not having been lectured in any class, so I'm not a good tennis player, but somehow I like tennis. We played it for 2 hours, so fun but exhausted,,,I felt profoundly that I'm not teenager anymore.
Now I switch systems holiday one to daily one. I gotta do many things for my futher way.